Fear.

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one. – Elbert Hubbard This. This is me. When I was younger, a boy growing up in rural Montana, I had little to no real joy.  I simply existed, in fear, from one day to the next.  I had little to look forward to and little to enjoy, particularly with anyone else. I still live in fear.  Fear of not just making a mistake (or many) but also fear of the unknown and unforeseen Bad Luck.  It’s hit before and there’s no reason to think it won’t hit again.  Despite my inner belief that fear and anxiety draw negativities towards them with the same prevalence that joy and positivity attract good things, I sometimes can’t shake the worry, the fear. I’ve never played to win, really, only playing Not To Lose.  It’s a shitty way to do this Life thing. The first time I ever actually played to win, throwing myself completely into something, was hockey.  Hell, for a long time that was the… Read moreFear.